Our homeschooling journey officially began 6 weeks ago and I thought it was time for a little update. My last post about school was an honest, anxiety ridden post that gave a small glimpse into the inner workings of my crazy brain. If you missed it, you can read it here.

I would love to be able to report that everything is perfect. That my schedules are working. That planning out the entire year wasn’t a complete and total waste of time. That’s totally not the case. I can report, however, that we are slowly figuring things out. Slowly. And that this journey has been eye opening and life changing. Some days I question everything and want to put him on the bus and send him to school. And others I feel super confident in my choices. Oh, the ebb and flow.

I have learned that all of this… the homeschooling… the parenting… shit, just life in general… is all about adjusting (and managing) expectations. Especially when you suffer from crippling perfectionism. Especially when your inner monologue is not too kind. 

So, I’m learning. Right along side them. Learning to be kind to myself. Learning how to dig deep. Finding patience even when there is none. Working on letting go of the perfectionism and seeing beauty in the messy parts of our daily life. If anything, I hope the kids take notice of this personal growth of mine. That they carry it with them into adulthood and realize that just because you’re an adult, doesn’t mean that you should stop learning and growing.